I have been through it these past weeks. Contact from S has been more and more difficult culminating in him asking if he can come over for cuddles. It would be so easy to jump on that merry go around but I know it will only lead to more heartache and my confidence is so low already. I sift through hundreds of men on the dating websites and it makes me feel empty and sad that there are so many lost souls in our world. Some of them just want to text. It’s so sad and frustrating – what is the point if you are not going to meet me? Endless inane chat. Does it make them feel better? Bizarre.
I am lying here full of angst and anxiety. My date today showed up which is unusual I now realise. He was nice enough but I was bored in minutes and struggling to converse and frustrated. With S it was fun and interesting from the off. I loved the kissing – I always love the kissing – it’s a link to the soul. Date also tripped over the dog as she shot in front of him and let me pay without a fuss. He also dropped in his salary and I thought – yawn.
Anyway at the end with S he never kissed me. It was soul destroying. I hope to meet someone who likes kissing – I hate beards and every other man has one at the moment. Lazy sods. I feel awful angst and anxiety. Where will life take me? I need to step up a gear in work for sure. I need to lose weight for the first time in a long time. Let’s just see where those things take me.
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