Deathly silence

How is your sleep pattern? Mine is terrible. I routinely awaken at 3am and can’t get back off to sleep. Mostly my eyes pop open and I am gripped by panic. My themes that occupy my head are money (lack of), keeping my daughter happy and helping her cope with her severe dyslexia, my job (and lack of sales) and my relationship (currently lack of). You see there’s a ‘lacking’ pattern? So I remortgaged to pay for various work around the house and now there isn’t enough money to go around :-/. I live in an affluent area, the kind of area tradespeople are happy to visit because if means they can bump up the price and you are bound to pay it. Very stressful.

My partner was significantly younger than me….see how I’m preparing you there? Ok so 16 years my junior. It sounds weird (ok so I appreciate it is weird) but the thing is we clicked and so it just happened that I was one minute texting and the next both feet first. At first i fought it. Worried about what others would say and I have a sibling the same age so it grossed me out for a while. Now I just think about the nitty gritty stuff between us and age doesn’t come into it. I have more energy and more guts so apparently age isn’t as important as I first thought.